The reality of Kat Jones (Unstoppable 10-2)

Camera's capture Kat Jones as she was sitting on a bench just outside of the Emerald Academy... Holding a packet of sigarets and a lighter staring at it.. Internally debating if she should light one up or just toss it away.. She sighed and put it in her pocket doing neither of the two.. She still wasn't able to let it go.. Not just yet.. They weren't even hers.. She wasn't the one that smoked.. Yet still she kept the two items and was still in doubt if she should toss it away.. Like she was tossed away.. She did not even notice that she wasn't alone anymore.. Behind her stood the tall raven haired vixen known to many as the ruthless even soulless bitch but to Kat it was her new mentor and the fiancee to Drew Stevenson.. Rebecca Curci aka Whisper.. Whisper just studied her pupil and saw the struggle but didn't know what she was struggling with..


Whisper : You know if you really want to smoke one we are not going to fire you for it or punish you..


Kat turned around quickly her eyes wide and her stance one of defense..


Kat : What are you doing out here?


Whisper held her hands up showing no ill will..


Whisper : I saw you sitting here and you seemed to be struggling with those smokes..


Whisper sat down on the bench next to Kat..


Whisper : So why don't you just light one up..


Kat : I don't smoke.. I never did..


Whisper frowned..


Kat : They weren't mine.. They were his.. They were left behind..


Whisper : Ah.. I see..


Kat : I don't think anyone sees it.. I have been hiding my true feelings for it.. I think everyone is thinking that I am over it..


Whisper : You and I are a lot a like.. To the outside world we hide the true pain and how much it hurts.. But you were left behind and where is he now..


Kat shrugged..


Kat : I don't know.. I have no clue where he is.. Why he just up and left.. Disappeared without a trace or a word of goodbye..


Whisper : I have been there.. They always return.. The question should be.. What would you do if he did return..


Kat : He fucking left me.. What I would do.. Probably kill him..


Whisper : I said that to.. You and he were together for a long time.. You are not like the other girls Kat.. You scratched and clawed your way from the streets to now fighting for a shot at the title.. There is a lot of history there and...


Kat : Yeah tons of history both good and bad memories but he just left me behind.. He went god knows where and I wasn't even good enough to get a goodbye.. Oh hey Kat I am going to leave and no-show for matches and just leave you stranded behind.. Nothing was said to me.. We were not friends.. We were together for over 7 fucking years!

Kat got up and kicked a nearby trashcan and screamed out her rage..Whisper smirked and watched as Kat just unleashed some of the anger and fury that is locked inside of her..


Whisper : This won't just go away Kat.. But you need to trust your instincts and find someone else.. Someone who will be there for you.. I thought you and Bradyn looked pretty good together..


Kat whirled around towards Whisper..


Kat : Yeah I thought that to.. But he is an Artemis guy now.. Or so he says..


Whisper : Remember there is a difference between the man and the character they portray..


Kat : Yeah I know that.. I might not be the smartest girl in the federation but I am not some fucking n00b.. I don't know what he wants or if he even wants me at all.. You know what.. I am so done right now with this conversation..


Whisper : To bad.. I am not done yet.. Kat you need to remember what you want... And go for it..


Kat : I am not sure I can be what Bradyn wants.. Or needs me to be.. because I don't know what the hell he wants at all.. I am not your average woman.. I fucking know that I am not the sanest one on the roster.. I am not the pretty girl.. hell I am not even the girly girl.. I am not normal.. I have never been normal.. My mind has been scrambled since way before I even heard about wrestling.. I have been fighting since I was barely 4 feet tall.. I don't know anything else but fighting..


Whisper : You need to spend some time with the girls..


Kat : Do you want to kill me.. If I had to do some random shopping spree I would commit suicide! I am just not that type of girl.. I am not the bubbly Marie.. I am not some fucking positive good girl.. I try for all I am worth to be that good girl that management wants me to be after last show.. I am trying but I am just not good at it.. I am better at being bad.. Because that is what they see anyway.. They see the pale girl with the dark make-up.. So she must be gothic.. Or emo or whatever other label they can think of.. Nobody.. Not even your perfect little Marie asked me how I am doing now..


Whisper tried to put her hand on Kat's shoulder but she shrugged it off violently..


Whisper : You can not use that against her this week..


Kat : I have been the good girl.. Showing up at every goddamn training provided.. I worked my goddamn ass off and proved that I got back into my rythm.. I got my winning streak back.. And I did that while fighting with my own emotions.. I did it fighting what had happened to me and the betrayal I had to go through.. And nobody once asked me how I was doing.. Did everybody think I don't have any emotions.. Am I that fucking cold that I don't have a heart that didn't just get stomped on.. I tried to put it aside and be that girl that could just shrug it off.. Guess what.. I am not! I have a fucking heart and I have my pride and my self-asteem and it all took a fucking low blow.. And now I am just about to stop giving a flying fuck if I am supposed to be a good girl.. If I am supposed to be fighting a friend or not.. And that is what I am struggling with.. I am so close to fucking snapping and losing it in the ring and I do not want to be known as a career ender.. Unlike Artemis.. I have that much fucking pride in what I do..


Whisper : Go home Kat... Take the rest of the day off.. Relax..


Kat : Yeah go home.. Go back to the piece of shit appartment that I moved into with that fucking idiot that I let into my heart.. Go to the place where everything there reeks of him... Where there are still pieces of clothing and stuff he left behind worthless to him just like me.. Yeah real good advice..


Whisper : Find a new place..


Kat : You just don't get it do you.. You had a golden career and made a shitload of cash on the big scene.. I am a fucking indy wrestler and I can not afford another place.. I am only a woman fighting in an indy federation and I don't make the big money.. I barely survive but it is a huge step up from sleeping on the fucking streets of Cincinatti or on the back seat of a car clutching a baseball bat sleeping with one eye open to prevent getting robbed, raped or killed in my fucking sleep.. I have nothing.. What you see is what I am.. I spend every dime I got in my ring gear and some reasonably normal clothes.. Just so that I don't look as much of a stray-Kat as I fucking am.. You know what is clear to me.. Nobody in this whole fucking federation knows me at all... And none of you that was so friendly to me in the past few weeks even tried to see what got me here.. Who I am.. And what I want to achieve.. None of you.. So congratulations Whisper.. The Arch Angel of wrestling.. Diva of Destruction... Congratulations indeed.. You are the one that made me show them..


Kat pointed straight at the camera she had noticed just before..


Kat : The one thing nobody wanted to see.. The reality of Kat fucking Jones.. I am alone.. Confused.. Hurt.. Angry and fucking hungry all the fucking time... And I am going into the match with all the rage and anger and bitterness I can hang on to.. And I will try and not unleash that on Marie Porter.. She deserves nothing of it.. But she just might get it anyway.. Because I am that close to snapping and letting it all go..


Kat turned on her heel and went back inside the academy to grab her things and head to that hellhole that is her appartment..

The scene fades on Whisper standing by that bench where it all started looking towards where Kat had gone..